Beauty

my sister found this and then i read it, and then i loved it.

On Joy and Sorrow
 Kahlil Gibran in “The Prophet”

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter’s oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. 

Some of you say, “Joy is greater thar sorrow,” and others say, “Nay, sorrow is the greater.”
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits, alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed. 

Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.
Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.
When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.

this is wonderous

http://www.wimp.com/panoramiccamera/
watch this it has amazing quality and would be super awesome to have for some quotable positions i've been at.

G.

Love is such an incomprehensible gift. i realized love does not come easy for me, a real love, a love for a person that is so true and deep that is unselfish, uncharacterized, impenetrable, currently i have this love for only one person that i can think of, not to be offensive or crude or comparing but my soul is only detached at this point in my life with one other, and it took me 20 years to realize that love for even them. this thing, this emotion that i feel, love can't even describe literally, it is a burden in the sense that it will always bear on me, i carry it no matter the emotion i am cycling, or the position i am in, i am disregarded in my own emotions by this emotion that i can only describe as pure and eternal. this confuses my heart because i yearn to feel this for more people but i can't, not yet anyway, i hope to share this feeling with others throughout my life, my parents, the rest of my relatives, my future husband if i have one, (which would almost be reassuring cause i wouldn't be afraid to commit to him) but i can't force this Agape feeling, i need a bond a string that cannot be broken. it seems that i, you too if you feel this or ever have, cannot fully except these emotions unless the other person also loves you in the same exact way, a reassurance that i think is necessary for this kind of soul splitting bond, it needs a partner. this is so prideful and dependent but it is the cost for our impotence. we don't deserve to love each other this way, that is why it is so difficult and rare. this also makes me so grateful, thankful, ecstatic, cry with heavy stream of tears, to think about how God loves every single one of us in that indescribable heart wrenching way. there are no more words to describe how ashamed i am to be merely human to other humans, but so thankful for jesus christ.

some awesome things i was allowed to experience.

woah

it has been a few months since I've been back from Africa, the only way i can describe my experience is to say that it was indescribable. it is such an honor to be able to know that God has formed and created me to live over seas, i cant wait to go back.
... i will hopefully be posting a lot of pictures soon, along with recent art, but my camera has been experiencing some difficulties recently so as soon as possible.